Counting The Cost

  • Author: Jill Duggar
  • Narrator: Jill Duggar
  • Publisher: Simon & Schuster
  • Duration: 7:06:58


For the first time, discover the unedited truth about the Duggars, the traditional Christian family that captivated the nation on TLC’s hit show 19 Kids and Counting. Jill Duggar and her husband Derick are finally ready to share their story, revealing the secrets, manipulation, and intimidation behind the show in this “no-holds barred” (People) instant New York Times bestseller.

Jill and Derick knew a normal life wasn’t possible for them. As a star on the popular TLC reality show 19 Kids and Counting, Jill grew up in front of viewers who were fascinated by her family’s way of life. She was the responsible, second daughter of Jim Bob and Michelle’s nineteen kids; always with a baby on her hip and happy to wear the modest ankle-length dresses with throat-high necklines. She didn’t protest the strict model of patriarchy that her family followed, which declares that men are superior, that women are expected to be wives and mothers and are discouraged from attaining a higher education, and that parental authority over their children continues well into adulthood, even once they are married.

But as Jill got older, married Derick, and they embarked on their own lives, the red flags became too obvious to ignore.

For as long as they could, Jill and Derick tried to be obedient family members—but now they’re raising a family of their own, and they’re done with the secrets. Thanks to time, tears, therapy, and blessings from God, they have the strength to share their journey. Theirs is a “complicated, remarkably relatable story of faith and family loyalty” (Salon) and a moving example of how to find healing through honesty.


  • 001 CountingTheCost Open

    Duration: 35s
  • 002 CountingTheCost Dedication

    Duration: 54s
  • 003 CountingTheCost Epigraph

    Duration: 16s
  • 004 CountingTheCost Prologue TheSled

    Duration: 03min
  • 005 CountingTheCost ChapterOne SweetJillyMuffin

    Duration: 45min
  • 006 CountingTheCost ChapterTwo AWindowOfOpportunityThatGodHasGivenUs

    Duration: 31min
  • 007 CountingTheCost ChapterThree ClippedWingsAndHillsToDieOn

    Duration: 46min
  • 008 CountingTheCost ChapterFour Costs

    Duration: 44min
  • 009 CountingTheCost ChapterFive TearingApart

    Duration: 46min
  • 010 CountingTheCost ChapterSix NoAgreement

    Duration: 35min
  • 011 CountingTheCost ChapterSeven DyingInsideAndOut

    Duration: 52min
  • 012 CountingTheCost ChapterEight PushedAside

    Duration: 49min
  • 013 CountingTheCost ChapterNine RealNotFake

    Duration: 39min
  • 014 CountingTheCost Epilogue APhoto

    Duration: 22min
  • 015 CountingTheCost AuthorsNote

    Duration: 01min
  • 016 CountingTheCost Acknowledgments

    Duration: 03min
  • 017 CountingTheCost Credits

    Duration: 01min